Tonight... By Barbara A. Kellom
Sunday,
January 22, 2012 at 3:24am ·
Tonight
I cried for a time that will never return.
I cried for the sweet smell of summer, fat caterpillars, and my youth.
I cried to play hide and seek in the alley, running past poison berry bushes that were always someone's meal.
I cried for jump rope and 24 robbers.
I cried to be picked up in my Daddy's arms, because I was too young, too little to cross the streets, and my steps were too short to keep up.
I cried because I miss that man.
I cried for my dolls, my pink little girl's room filled with toys, my crushes...all of them, my first kiss, my 45's playing all night long.
Tonight, I let my tears roll down my cheeks. I let them rush down my cheeks.
I let my heart ache for lost loves, for loves that will never be and those that will never be again.
Tonight, I let the tears swell in my eyes. I let the water swell my eyes shut.
I had no reservations. I allowed myself the PLEASURE of pain.
DO YOU HEAR WHAT I'M SAYING?
I cried 'til my tears were powdered stains on my cheeks.
I cried because there was no one to kiss my tears away. No one to make it alright like it used to be.
I cried because there was no band-aid big enough to stop the bleeding.
I was ALONE, with my MEMORIES of EVERYTHING and EVERYONE that used to make me laugh, and I cried.
I cried for the sweet smell of summer, fat caterpillars, and my youth.
I cried to play hide and seek in the alley, running past poison berry bushes that were always someone's meal.
I cried for jump rope and 24 robbers.
I cried to be picked up in my Daddy's arms, because I was too young, too little to cross the streets, and my steps were too short to keep up.
I cried because I miss that man.
I cried for my dolls, my pink little girl's room filled with toys, my crushes...all of them, my first kiss, my 45's playing all night long.
Tonight, I let my tears roll down my cheeks. I let them rush down my cheeks.
I let my heart ache for lost loves, for loves that will never be and those that will never be again.
Tonight, I let the tears swell in my eyes. I let the water swell my eyes shut.
I had no reservations. I allowed myself the PLEASURE of pain.
DO YOU HEAR WHAT I'M SAYING?
I cried 'til my tears were powdered stains on my cheeks.
I cried because there was no one to kiss my tears away. No one to make it alright like it used to be.
I cried because there was no band-aid big enough to stop the bleeding.
I was ALONE, with my MEMORIES of EVERYTHING and EVERYONE that used to make me laugh, and I cried.
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